A girl writes

The literalness is probably a block (it was a hand she couldn't lift not an arm in the beginning)...a block like the twitches and the itches and the other million distraction techniques she has used. The latest seems to have been yawns...great big awe inspiring YAWNS... it doesn't feel like its a conscious block... but.....

The other way to cope now it 'works' is to believe it doesn't work, but that at some level this girl is 'just going along' with things to keep the Owner happy... that works as a justification until one does things without being aware of doing them :-)

How strange to fight so hard against something so enjoyable...but the fight is against submission not against the hypnotic state.

Its been a long journey... where we've been, you'll probably hear.... where were going will come along soon enough.

But at base.... this girl isn't bothered about transformation (though its interesting)...she just loves the control...the having someone inside her head and the passivity.

Oh...and the loss of self....to disappear... to just 'be'.